Today is the day I received my results from the IELTStest, try number 2.
My first try wasn’t enough, so I studied and studied to try and top it off.
I prepared with all that I could, you can read about that here
And this is the result:
Not enough, no go on my visa application and I feel like all my dreams just shattered into a million pieces. I studied so hard for this and my writing even went down 0.5 points compared to last time.
At this moment I am so sad and disappointed about these numbers, I feel like I failed myself and my coach.
I needed at least 4 times 7, but studied for 4 times 8 and didn’t make it.
I won’t give up, I’ve cried and will continue to drop some tears, but I won’t stop here.
Still, these results stop me from putting out my visa application and that is the thing I worry most about. What if I can’t stay? What if after one year of building my new life, I have to come back?
And then, at exact that moment, while typing this down and expressing my doubt, my coach calls, as if she knew I needed some peptalk.
She too didn’t expect this, but tells me not to stop, not to give up, my English is good enough and I can do it – and I will!
Right now I am going to try and figure out what my next move will be – I’ll keep you posted and I hope you will keep on following me on this bumpy, exciting and scary ride.
Lots of love,